This Full Life

Join me and my guest Blogger, writer and coach Julie Guthrie as we chat about how we've been pretending we know what we're doing.   I’ve come to the realization that I used to pretended I knew how to be a mom.  It didn’t come naturally to me at all. I was 22 years old when my first child was born. I had no idea how to be a mom or even what to do.   The emotional foundation to know myself on a deeper level didn't exisist so how could I show up for my kids. For me an immediate love connection didnt' form to my first child.  It’s not that I didn’t love him. I didn't know how to love myself.  How could I know what that love felt like to give to another human.  I was young and I wasn’t done growing up or figuring myself out.   I was pretending like I knew what to do. It took me years before I felt like his mom. It took me years before I felt like I was even worthy of being his mom.  I felt so inadequite and unworthy of being his mom.   Julie's lived her entire adult life thinking she's known what she's do