Thought Project With Ashley Rothstein

When I mention my past obsession with working out, I'm shocked by how many people have experienced something similar. Many people seem to have a similar story: attempting to control themselves and their minds through manipulation of their physical body, whether it be through food, hydration, supplements, substances, working out, or lack thereof.   Back in 2012/2013, I spent nearly all day at the gym almost every day. I would rest only when my body and mind would force me to/shut down, usually in the form of sickness, extreme fatigue, or mental distress. During these 6-8 hour gym days, I would do 3-4 workouts. Many of them were high intensity/high weight/high rep where I pushed myself near max. Working out became THE core activity in my life that I used to measure my self worth and self identity. I was a 'CrossFitter' and slid right into what I thought was expected of a CrossFitter.   Some days, my peers would joke that they were coming in to try and beat my time. I would laugh for social acceptance, but insid