Jerry Banfield

I like to think of myself now as a programmable robot. Thinking like this helps explain the depth of getting what you give. The same as with a computer, all of what I let into my mind, body, and soul impacts what I get back out. When I listen to negative news and energy, I get negative feelings, fears, and awful thoughts. When I eat too much, I feel tired, irritable, and disappointed. When I skip exercise, I feel lazy, unmotivated, and useless. When I say something hurtful, I immediately feel bad inside. While I am no expert on my own feelings now, watching how my body reacts is pretty easy. Once I am aware my body is feeling pain, seeing the changes in my mood is a lot easier. I first noticed this at my friend’s wedding. I had been sober just long enough to feel vulnerable at a place where most of my friends were drinking and regretful that I had not been a good enough friend to be in the wedding party. To escape some of these feelings, I went hard at eating but not as hard as I might have in the pa